You know when you are a million months pregnant and the baby doesn’t come out and the baby doesnt come out and you CAN’T WAIT to get the baby out of your body but you are SO SCARED also about what that will mean to you and your life?
That’s how I’m feeling about moving close to my kids. Everything that happens that isn’t helping get me there is SO irritating and I constantly want to punch or trip people. And I’m also terrified that my moving up there is somehow going to inadvertently tip the universe the wrong way and my kids’ lives are going to forever be scarred by my closer presence. Which, I don’t really think is true but what if it is? You know?