And then things got harder…..

I’m learning some wonderful lessons about natural consequences. I think that somewhere in my mind I thought that there would be an excuse to get out of things to a certain point, but I’m learning otherwise. And, to be more blunt, sometimes you get ‘punished’ for doing the right thing. Punished sounds like a strong word but that’s what it feels like. And I’m not really sorry, either. I’m just always fascinated by life.

I quit working where I was the other day and have moved to a new brokerage house. The things going on at Financial Company X were not all on the up-and-up. When I quit, I realized that just because it was the right thing to do didn’t make it easy and it set me back financially about 2 months, which I really couldn’t afford. So I’m back to panicking about money for a while, but I guess that’s ok. Deep down inside I know that God has a plan for me and I’m doing my best to tap into it and go along with it.

On the upside: the new brokerage house, Company B, is still close enough to my home that the commute isn’t bad and I can work from home a lot of the time which I love. The broker, Teresa, is much more flexible as far as the loan programs and lenders I can work with and her commission structure is so much better. I know in the long run this was the right thing to do. It’s this short run of the next two months that has me worried.
I wasn’t able to see my kids last month because I wasn’t able to pay my bills here at the house and it looks like it will be the case again. This is the part that really kills me. I’m sure I’m learning something here but all it feels like right now is pain. I miss my kids so much.

I will see them for dinner tonight. I’m driving up there to switch CPU’s with my daughter. If I’m going to be working from home I need a good one and the one I have has decided to go AWOL. Hopefully her dad can fix it for her.
Peace, Love and Understanding.

quick recap for the kids:
doing the right thing isn’t easy sometimes, and more often than not, it’s pretty hard but still right, i’m starting with a new company, i miss you all so much and can’t wait for dinner tonight, thanx, ali for switching computers with me.
mom