Oral Compulsion

I think I figured out why crocheting for hours while in the car, watching TV or hanging out with friends works so well for me. It’s smoking. My hands are busy, I’m laughing and talking and drinking and my hands are doing something. I’m just not actually inhaling dark death into my lungs. Everybody wins. It’s the same reason I eat sunflower seeds at every game we go watch the kids play.

And here I thought I had quit.

Anyone want to buy a hat?

9 Replies to “Oral Compulsion”

  1. I need to make a hat, I think!! I am quitting smoking (gasp) my roommate quit, and now its no fun to sit on the back patio alone and smoke … so I quit.

  2. I’m down to between two and five a day, so that’s not so terrible. Yarn is a great inhibitor. I’m working on a skinny scarf right now, and I’ve never saved so much money on the cancer sticks.

  3. Yay for the absence of dark death into the lungs.

    I quit smoking but not nicotine. I think you’ve got it better. Sunflower seeds are way cheaper than nicotine patches/gum!

  4. Hi Leah,
    This isn’t about knitting, actually. My name is Caitlin and I’ve been reading your site for the past few months. Sorry for lurking, I just never know how to say hi. Hi! Probably just like that. I have not experienced multiple personalities but I have experienced a lot of wht you describe in your archives, which I hope you don’t mind that I read. It helps so much to know that there are people out there with llives that are just fine who suffer in some of the same ways I do. I have always been fascinated by your blog tagline: “Flawed but authentic.” One of the things I find most beautiful in your writing is that you do try do embrace flaws as human. And you certainly seem to be striving each day towards an authentic life. Here’s my question: How do you do that??? 😉

    I suffer from depression and anxiety dissorders and am learning that there may be a large part of my childhood that I have blocked from memory. My biggest struggle is trying to be authentic. With mental illness, how can you even find you self in there to be authentic to? If you have the time, any advice would mean the world to me.

    Thank you for you writing, compassion, and beauty.

  5. Hi ya.

    My therapist always says (and my therapist is ALWAYS right) that the best way to overcome your addictions is not to grit your teeth and stop, but to replace them with something more productive! You’re WINNING! Have you ever considered making something to help those who suffer with your addicted hands? I have a good friend who makes several crocheted afghans a week (in her spare time) to donate to people in remote areas who need them. Just a thought.

    PS – I have one of your hats – and it is a beauty! Thanks!

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