so much is going on

but then again, not really. I’m not really accomplishing much of anything although I’m creating quite a wake in the water as I paddle and lurch around.

So many hard questions lately. And not many answers. My life is in flux once again and I hate it. Someday I hope to be sitting on the deck of a home I’ve lived in for many, many years and tell my grandkids how nice it is to have put down roots.

I appear to have found my dream job. It’s working with a group called A Reason To Survive or ARTS. They provide free art classes for kids in trauma, i.e. with cancer or fatal diseases, abused or disturbed kids. They also provide free classes to the families of the kids. This group is so great! I met with Matt, the founder the other day and we talked about me coming on as a program director in August. It really is what I’d love to do with the rest of my life. The downside: it’s 2+ months away. Can I find a way to make it till then? We’ll see.

Worst thing I’ve heard someone say in a really, really long time: “Of course we wish you weren’t here. We wish you didn’t exist! But you do, so we’ll just work with what we’ve got.’ Way harsh. I hope I keep the good sense to never let it pass by my lips to hurt another person. It’s amazing the kinds of things people say to each other. And it’s amazing the things you hear when you don’t want to.

quick recap for the kids:
i had such a wonderful mother’s day weekend with you! i can still hear tony singing happy mother’s day in his opera voice and alex singing to me the song she wrote. i loved getting a few extra hugs from ty and dev, thanx for helping look through the classifieds. Alex, here is the photo from your cheer tryouts.
watch what you say to others. it matters.
so much love i might burst,
mom